Interesting Day

Hello Everybody,

This has been one interesting day. I had to watch both of my "nanny" kids today. The seven year old and the nineteen month old. The seven year old drives me crazy and I just want to rip my hair out by the roots. He just started taking ADHD medicine and it hasn't kicked in yet. He won't listen to a single thing I say and he argues with everything said. I just want to smack him across his face. If he was my kid I would beat his bare bottom and he would never speak to me the way he does now. He is so disrespectful its scary, he is only seven and he acts like a sixteen year old when it comes to his attitude. Luckily his grandfather came and picked him and the baby up today around 2:45. I have never been so glad to see them. I don't know what I would have done if I had had to stay with them until 6:30 like normal.

Tomorrow is Jennifer's wedding and I can't wait. I'm not really related to them, but I have helped to plan it and I'm anxious to see how everything comes together. It should be a cute wedding.

I've been putting a dollar store puzzle together the last few days, just out of boredom, and I can't believe how hard it is. I didn't think it would be this hard, it only cost a dollar, boy was I wrong. Its of palm trees on a beach and most of the pieces are green/blue/white its really confusing.

I have decided to take this coming semester of college off. I don't really know if its the best thing for me, but I don't have much option since the semester starts in the next couple of weeks. I have been really thinking alot about what I want to do with my life and what I need to do to achieve my goals. I have always had the whole life thing figured out that when it hit me like a ton of bricks, I didn't know what hit me. Nothing has turned out like my plan or what I figured, so I want to take some time off and really decide what is best for me. I think I will go ahead and do the dental assistant program and major in orthodontics. The job pays less than a dental hygienist, but its really what I want to do, and I think if I don't do it I will really be letting my dream and aspirations down. I will be kidding myself into liking dental hygiene when I want to work with braces and the such. I can't wait, I just wish I didn't have to go to two more years of school to do it.

Since moving in with my aunt and uncle in the middle of no-where, I have lost most contact with all my friends. I really wish I had people close to me. I desire to have that close knit group of friends who do everything together all the time. I would love to have a life again, I never do anything but sit at home and watch TV. Most of my "friends" are too far to do things with them on a regular basis. I wish God would bless me with good christian friends my own age or a little older who could help me be a good person and who would do things with me. I need that closeness and contact with other humans my own age. I don't get any contact with people except kids and old adults. HHHUUUGGGHHH!!!

I don't know if It's the right time in my life either, but I would really like to meet someone to have a good dating relationship with. I desire a loving relationship in the confines of a christian relationship.

I guess I will end on that note.

Love ya always,
In Christ Jesus,
Jessica